hell bent & heartfelt

​It was somewhere between the snooze button and the final blast of my alarm when a thought started bouncing around like bb's in a boxcar.  It was hidden in my internal dialog.  You know, the conversation you have with your id, ego, monkey brain, multiple personalities?  Yes, all of your internal tribe communing less than quietly …. there was an internal argument going on. What does the statement “in my humble opinion” truly mean?  My heart immediately chimed in “it is never humble when prefaced this way”, my warrior ego slammed the table of my head “damn straight – humble doesn’t need to be from the heart, it needs to smack down the listener to get results”.  When I quieted the committee (around minute three of ten allotted snooze minutes) I realized I have never liked the phrase….”in my humble opinion”. It is up there with "Constructive Criticism". Asking all the participants why it triggered me revealed my issue with anyone who needs to preface a statement declaring their humility.  My BS radar alarm goes off and I instantly reject the notion that the speaker is anything resembling humble.  So what would a better conversation sound like?  What is the truth, my truth, a truth … can a voice be humble? 
Is there value in my voice?  The warrior goddess spoke up – “YES!  There is value in insight, your honesty, your heart. Cut through the darkness and open space for light”

My heart gently and quietly proclaimed – “pride makes us artificial, humility makes us real - so be real".

This is the collective voices of my intuition, my experience and my opinions shared with a tribe of people who are seeking insight and searing truth communicated from a space of gratitude and love. No apologies, no judgment, mercy and forgiveness seasoned with irreverent humor, candid clarity and laughter … lots and lots of laughter.  Although reticent when challenged with blogging and the statement “you should get your voice out there…” I was ultra-sensitive to the abundance of white noise, clamoring dialog and wasted space already invading the energy around me. I had to own my intention and know that this space would rise above the fray, add substantial value and be a gift to those that read it – even possibly affecting change for someone's life.  Will I always hit that mark?  Odds on favorite, probably not – but if I can change one life, lessen one person’s pain, make someone choose to stack their life differently, it will be worth it.  In fact, it may be everything.  I believe in ripple effects.  And in the world I live in I want to be the stone that moves the water, to create the rings, to skip the surface and move into infinity. As my voice grows stronger, I assure you it will always be hell bent and heartfelt.

​So it begins, “In my Heartfelt Opinion”  I.M.H.O.